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I don't get people that don't like to think. I reaized that I love thinking - alot. If I took the time out to write what I thought. I could not. It is strange but I just realized I think in pictures not words (too figure it out 20yrs of my life it took (yoda am I)). One of my friends can only think in words and numbers (world sad bleak) (reverse  in parenthesis I will type). I said I was thinking of a square he told me that the word not the shape poped in his mind. Just thought 1872 of  a googolplex This could come from 13yrs of Karate and replaying events in my head over and over to see all the angles. I wonder how it effects my pomes.

Have not written for a long time but I feel it is good.  a bit more pure and different feeling that before. a new flow a new type of life. Strange. but anyway the muse that i had died and the Blue Funk got me like the plague  Mental locust. I had to wait it out and see how the oceans of emotions moved in me. i feels like i just need to wait a long time to heal something deep. i keep trying to break out of the funk using the shocking methods of just getting angry and trying to laugh my way out. But the yin healed me, the waiting the sitting the silence the void. I am so bad at doing nothing but I finally stoped thinking and stopped figurin

trying to get open verse to work on deviant is like gutting a cow with a pitchfork however i have never seen this